by John Gilstrap
Hand to God: If 11-year-old John Fretz had not been hit by a car and critically injured in 1979, my son would never have been born in 1986, and I would be nothing like the man I am today.
From 1976-1979, I was a summer camp counselor for over-privileged rich kids in Falls Church, Virginia. That’s how I earned my annual $800 in spending money that got me through cheap college dates. On my last day of that last year of extended childhood, young John Fretz, who had been a staple of my group since he was seven, chased a ball into Sleepy Hollow Road and got nailed by a car doing 35-40 miles per hour.
I heard the bang and the screams of the witnesses. When I got there, I was the first adult(ish), other than the hysterical driver. John’s leg was bent at a 100-degree angle at mid-thigh. He was unconscious, and a color of pale that to this day brings tears to my eyes. By the time all the diagnoses were complete, the list of internal and external injuries was a page long, but what I remember most about sitting in the emergency room was the look on his father’s face. Rick Fretz was a widower, and John was his only son. If prayer can take a physical form, Rick was it.
Within a year, John was fully recovered. I was a part of that, but only on the sidelines. On one of my visits to the hospital within a week or two of the accident, Rick offered me a challenge: “It’s easy to visit in week one or week two,” he said. “But week ten and week twelve are when he’ll really need the company.” It was that kind of recovery, and I was a regular for over a year.
I’ve lost touch with them now, but last I heard, everyone was thriving, and there was even a wife and a baby or two in the mix. Congregation say “Amen” and tip a glass to the new generation.
So, how does this create my son?
John Fretz’s accident is the single reason why I enrolled in an EMT class at my local community college. I was never again going to be caught feeling that helpless. EMT class led to 15 years in the fire service. The fire service led to a degree in safety engineering, which got me a job at an explosives manufacturer, where my boss’s boss was dating the sister of a woman named Joy, who’d recently gone through a bad break-up. Said grand-boss arranged a blind date that resulted in love at first sight (literally), which led to the marriage that created Chris. Really, it’s that much of a straight-line connection.
As a lifelong Catholic, I can’t say that I buy into predestination; but I can tell you from the heart that I don’t believe in coincidence, either. Stuff happens for a reason. If the first 27 agents I queried hadn’t rejected my first novel, I’m certain that I’d have fallen short of a couple of mega-buck deals. If I hadn’t fallen out eventually with my first agent, I never would have found my current agent, who, along with the team she’s introduced me to, have become the architects of a whole new career. If my career hadn’t taken a disappointing turn a few years ago, I never would have pursued the alternative routes that have opened doors that I never dreamed of.
If you’ve been in this writing game for more than a few years, you inevitably encounter the terminally-frustrated, burned-out artist who is on the verge of self-destruction. Tastes have changed, and suddenly his market has dried up. Or, maybe, after too many second-callbacks without ever making the final cut, he’s ready to throw in the towel. It happens, and in a creative endeavor, I think rejection stings more than usual.
There’s a lot of Pollyanna in me. I believe that it’s hubris for any one of us to proclaim in real time what is and is not “bad” fortune. Certainly, there are events in life that are so dark that light cannot be imagined, but those tragedies are blessedly few. On any given day, rank-and-file disappointments are really opportunities for forging new paths.
You just never know where that uncharted fork in the road is going to take you.
What about you, friends and Killzoners? Have you found surprising good fortune buried in a stinking mound of disappointment? Tell us about it.